Life isn't fair.

"Life isn't fair. You see I...I will never be king, and you...*dark chuckle*...you'll never see the light of another day..." *The Lion King*

So my mom is watching a Bible study video by Beth Moore and she's talking about how life isn't fair. I started out thinking selfish things like, "Yea I know!" and thinking about how poor and pitiful my life is...

She continued to talk about some Indian women she met on a mission trip and what poverty and devastation they live in. She talked about how she felt so guilty for living so well when they were stuck in such a terrible place. Ouch. I'm not saying my life is perfect but comparativly I have so much, it makes me feel so unworthy of what I have. If I cannot be content with all the many many blessings God has given me, how will I ever be happy? I have so much to learn sometimes, but at least He's there and always will be.

"Rejoice in the Lord always and again I say Rejoice."
Elyz

Dear Bloggers,

I'm terribly sorry about the long delay, I've been running ragged these days. It is March and finally leaning towards Spring-like weather. I feel each day has been a completely new novel of its own so I'll probably have to catch you up very briefly. To make a potentially very long story short...

The show I auditioned for I was offered a role as well, the show was Amadeus and I was a shadow. I continued on to audition for Into the Woods, a musical by Stephen Sondheim, which I also made, this time playing Milky-White, a cow. Finally I auditioned recently for Macbeth and recieved the roles of Donalbain and Caithness, also being a part of the ensemble. We are now in rehearsal for this show and I am proud to announce I have my first speaking role in University Theatre. The actors and technicians have all been nothing but wonderful to me and are becoming very good friends whom I rely on greatly.

Which leads me to Drew. During Into the Woods, Drew and I came to the conclusion that we weren't as compatible as we had once thought. Due to many reasons which I will not detail, we broke up on February 20, 2010.

Since that day God has been turning my world upside down. I have learned so much it's really amazing. Everyday I walk with Him to class and hold His hand, I'm depending on Him so much it's hard to think of myself as alone at all when I let Him be near.

Freshman year is turning out very differently than planned, so I've decided I'm done planning everything. While I will still plan out for some things I'm not deciding my future anymore, because that's gonna be what God wants it to be.

"Everything's changing and I don't feel the same"

~Elyz~