Monday, August 29, 2011

Now What?

It's been about a month since I arrived home from Prague and I'm ready to go back. I knew this was coming though. This doesn't surprise me in the least.

I know God has work for me right here in college, in work, in church, in theatre...but what?

I've recently joined the cast for the first show of the year, The Philadelphia Story, and it's going to be wonderful, however I can't seem to shake this feeling that there's got to be something more that I should be doing.

After all the training and growing up I went through during the summer, this just seems like a let down. Am I missing something?

Lately I've been begging God to send me. I honestly know I'm ready to do some awesome work for Christ. I want to make a difference for the gospel but I feel like I'm being caged. And I know what you're going to say, "wait on the Lord." Well, I'm trying.

I can't help feeling that my influence here has ceased to be useful. People respect that I don't force religion in their faces and that's great and wonderful but I feel like they've gotten used to me. And to what I know about Christ.

This doesn't make any sense does it? Even as I'm typing it doesn't make sense.

On the other hand, I've started riding my bike lately to classes, and it feels like victory.

(I have no grip on words today.)
~Elyz~

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